Too Tired Tuesday (or: The Penalty for Manic Monday)

I don't have the energy to be charming or witty or fun, today. Due to my overexertions yesterday, it's a nakedblogging in bed day for Thorne. (Fibromyalgia sux) A couple quickies and then I need to get my "About Me" done for my website, Phoenix Rising Tattoo Arts and Inkblog, An Artist's Journey (It's been waaaay too long since I've updated over there).

Super Important is that everyone pick up the phone today to let Pelosi know that we want Bush/Cheney IMPEACHED now!!! The phone number is 202-225-0100. Read more and get link at Divajood's place.

Not near the urgency above, but important to lil ol me here in my personal microverse is my frustrated (and whining) plea for HELP in getting my rss feed set up/fixed!!!
Thornesworld is old blogger template hosted at my website. I could never get the atom feed to work, so I went to feedburner and added one (I think... I'm not sure it ever made it) The problem is, every time I submit my feed anywhere, or when I have feedburner check it, I get an error message. The message says either that I have multiple feeds, or that no feed can be found. Typing my feed addy from my settings doesn't seem to work, either. I used feedburner for my inkblog and it worked fine, but that is new blogger beta and hosted at blogspot.
Now I have a couple of folks wanting to read by feed who can't find my feed.
I'm not being a totally useless net dork; I've tried repeatedly to fix this myself, have asked at the blogger forums (no help), have asked at feedburner and a couple other places, all to no avail.
I'm at my wits end with this, and frustrated because I know how much I prefer to be able to receive feeds from my regularly read blogs, and how much greater a hassle it is to have to bookmark and go visit without knowing if new content has been posted. Anyone who can or is willing to help me, please keep in mind that I'm super new at and dumb about much of this. (Please be gentle, I'm also an oversensitive crybaby today due to off the chart pain levels.)

*note: BG just sent me this feed url. (Thanks for trying hon.) I tried to post it at my Yahoo 360 feeds and got the following message: Error: We were unable to fetch the feeds you requested. Please check the URLs and try again. (this is making me crazy)

Note on Manic Monday post: Sorry for being unclear. I was worn out by the time I got to it and tried for a brief bit of poetry to sum the day up. The pic is not me, but of one of my clients/my work. The pic is of a section of an ongoing project which will become a "Cottage/Spring Garden" themed full sleeve tattoo. When we get done with this one, we'll be starting on her other sleeve which will be Autumn in theme.


Here is another preview peek of my ink that has not yet been uploaded to the website. This is "Spirit Horse"

Because I'm a glutton for punishment and on devastatingly slow dialup I found this lil tidbit over at Feministing on a new drug which seems to be a chemical female solution to obesity and low libido both, while hopefully allowing you poor straight chicks to keep up with your men on Viagra or Cialis. Good luck, gals!

Feeling a little overwhelmed...

Yesterday was a lovely, lazy day in bed with my love. We watched all 3 of the Lord of the Rings Trilogy. (I napped for awhile during number 2). As nice as yesterday was, I need to figure out how to have a day off on the weekend without feeling totally overwhelmed by this house and the things I need to do, come Monday. Of course, it doesn't help that I'm still in a flare-up, and not feeling at my best.
Then F's A came home, which is great, but it also means that F disappeared without notice and without helping clean up her messes, or unloading the car from all the shopping we did on Saturday. I also scheduled B today for ink. I need to stop scheduling for Monday. There are just too many things I need to do after having put them off for the weekend. Bills, (or at least bill negotiations- haha), It's a beautiful day for laundry, I need to make Birdy Bread and since the bank wasn't open on Sat, I need to run into town.
I also need to catch up with web business since B finished my website. Well, it's not quite finished, because there is a bunch of copy that I need to get written so he can get it up; but it's up and running and lovely with pics and contact info. And I want to write an article this morning about tattooing on dark skinned people for my inkblog.
I think I would be feeling overwhelmed with all this if I weren't in a flare-up, but as is it's even worse.

Damned FMS

Grrr.... Having a damned flare up. Seems like I've been fighting one for a couple of months. Just when I would start getting rested after an event that got my body overworked, (like driving that truck around), another event would occur, (the tattoo show), and just when I was nearly recovered from that, G went in hospital. I'm sure it could have been worse. Like if I'd have had to drive back and forth from home instead of staying at Brad's. Still, 4 days without enough sleep; climbing in and out of F's little Celica (sooooo looowww!!!), and going without my psych and sleep meds really put me on the verge. Then I pushed myself over the edge by eating one of my allergy foods. I totally forgot!!
I've gotten pretty good about staying away from them most of the time, or only having a few chips when we go out for mexican, so I can have a little cheese. But I made pork chops and stuffing and frozen corn and like an idiot I ate the corn. Boom. Next morning not only was I wheezing and snuffling, but my lymphs were swollen like golfballs (literally. I am not exaggerating. The glands under my arms were the size of golfballs...or eggs).
Then I worked on Brad for a couple of hours and my wrists were aflame like they used to get. I had to tap out after 3 hours.
Of couse, at first all I could do was whine to myself about how I hurt and didn't want to feel like this, but then I managed to get into gratitude about how long it's been since I've had a flare up. All I had to do was remember that for 2 years I felt like this (and worse) every single day! So it's been rest, rest, sleep and more rest for Thorne. I haven't been on the computer or online with my wrists hurting so much, so I'm a bit behind everywhere. I'm starting here at my journals and then I'll try little by little to catch up everywhere.
Brad got my website done and up - the angel. If you're reading this, please stop by and check it out. I'm so excited. Please stop in and sign the guestbook, or put yourself on my map so I'll know you've stopped by (and so those features don't look so empty and lame!!! Please!!) And check out "Thornezene". LOL. We still need to add lots of pics and such, and I have lots of writing to do for the FAQs and Aftercare and About me, but all the links work and I think it looks pretty darned good!!
Yesterday I worked for about 6 hours, and cleaned house (had to-for the surprise client), so today is another mostly bed day for me so I can get this F/U under control. I'm going to stop by Clipmarks, My Yahoo, LJ, Bravenet, and 43 Things if I can and start trying to get a bit caught up. Sorry everyone I haven't been around. I hope you all understand.

OCD, self destructive behavior and growth...

Well, I am feeling like shit this morning, and it's pretty much my own fault. Again. This particular FMS flare-up to be fair to myself, started with driving the truck. But it's continuing, I believe, because I am caught in another OCD and self will run riot episode of late nights.
What really sux for me about this is that this time of year, I can pretty much bet on having some ocd-manic time getting ready for Yule. But it's a little early, if I wanna feel even half-way decent on the day.
It should be starting now. *LOL* And not on top of a flare up already in process, dammit!!! So here it is, the Solstice, and my back and hips are screaming at me so I can hardly walk, and my knees hurt so bad from trying to protect my back going up and down steps, that they are inflamed and feel like they're going to buckle every time I take the 2 steps down to our bedroom. Damn!!
B came over to visit, yesterday. We had a blast all day being iTunes whores and copying music to our iBooks and visiting. But then as the evening wore on we settled into talk of spirit and psyche and space and time and before I knew it, it was 2am, again!!! I don't think I've gotten to sleep before 3am but once in the last week. And I know how hard that is on my body!!!
I've gotten so much better over this last year at listening to my body and taking better care of me, but I still go through these crazy episodes where I know I'm doing too much that's not good for me, and I can't seem to stop. Too much coffee, too many ciggs, to many late nights in a row, allergy foods in excess....
Talk about OCD and manic behavior. And how self destructive or self defeating is it?? Or is it?? When I'm like this I feel like "I just wanna be normal!! (Well, normal me, anyway)" I get so frustrated with my limitations, and then, like a good alcoholic, I'm on a binge!!!
Well. Not drinking, but the metaphor is apt. In AA we say "It's the first drink that gets ya drunk" We understand that to mean that the first drink kicks the obsession into overdrive and we're off. It's much "safer" to just not take the first drink.
These obsessive, self injuring behaviors of mine seem much the same. Just like my allergy foods. Once I pull an all nighter drinking coffee and working on the computer, or tattooing or crafting or whatever, it's like I enter into "control" mode. I have to, or I'm off on a binge, so to speak.
Now, if (If what a big little word. "Op zoboba hat gehort, ern zeida ben ein zeda!!" [translation from yiddish: If Grandma had balls, she'd have been Grandpa]). *LOL*